Perspective

The only thing I can think of writing right now is complaint after complaint.  I have started this blog post 5 times and every time it sounds whinier than the last so I'll try to post something not so negative :)  I got to spend the weekend in St. Anthony with Lindsey and Brody.  It was great to get away from Rexburg and to spend some time with them.  We watched several movies and I did a bunch of homework.  I  am having a really hard time being positive.  All I want to do is quit and when I think about school too much, all I want to do is cry!  It's really pretty pathetic!  I don't miss my family as much as I did last semester so that's good I think?  Haha :)  Don't get me wrong, I still miss them A LOT but I'm just not crying about it all the time!  :)  I do REALLY miss my nephew!!  I can't believe he will be 1 in 20 days!!!!  Where did this year go?  I am ready to drop all of my classes and go to Utah!  Yesterday for FHE ( family home evening) one of my roommates shared a story out of the January Ensign called Fireflies.  (Read it!  It's awesome!)  It really made me think about my situation right now.  The article is basically saying that we sometimes lose focus on the eternal perspective because we are too focused on the things that are right in front of us.  Fireflies can sometimes look like stars because they are so close while the stars are so far away.  All I can think right now is getting through this semester and I keep thinking that if I can survive the next 2 1/2 months then I'll just quit college after that.  I know that's not a very realistic perspective to have but It is the only thing getting me through right now.  What will I do with my life if I don't get a degree?  There was a quote from the article that really stuck out to me.

Like the fireflies, temptations and trials loom large because they are close at hand. Meanwhile, the promised blessings, like stars, can appear very distant.

I know that I need to look to the future and remember that growth and learning are all a part of the plan but sometimes I really just want to give up!  

"We all lose our eternal perspective occasionally; the challenge is to regain it as quickly as possible. Though the world may offer attractive, counterfeit rewards, we can look to Jesus Christ as we navigate the twists and turns of life and trust that He truly is “a rewarder of them that diligently seek him”

Well, I guess I didn't do a very good job of being positive but I'm just not feeling very positive right now!  I am thankful for the opportunities I've had and all of the things I've learned from being at college but Anatomy and Physiology just really doesn't seem very relevant to me.  Once again, it's probably my perspective...  Whatever!  I am just telling my self that my grades don't matter this semester...  Hahaha  Anyways, have a good day!!